Enjoy this one moment in your life because it will;
now isn’t that a nice thought.
everything has a purpose; even if you can’t see it at that particular moment.
when you fail that class; purpose
when you get hit by a drunk driver; purpose.
when your mom gets cancer; purpose.
when your little brother starts loving cocaine; purpose.
when your dad walks out; purpose.
when your best friend overdoses; purpose.
when you get robbed; purpose.
when your dog runs away; purpose.
when you lose job for no reason; purpose.
when your girlfriend leaves you; purpose.
from here on out, recognize purpose;
because nothing happens without one.
every thing you do.
every word you speak.
every class you pass.
every dollar you spend.
every beer you drink.
every friend you make.
every line you snort.
every hit you take.
every smile they fake.
there is a singularity of purpose it has on your life.
they say this so it must be true.
well i think otherwise.
things happen for convoluted reasons, and sadly;
most people aren’t built up
most people don’t learn a lesson
most people don’t come out of negative situations with a smile on their face.
people don’t learn from pain,
people learn to live with pain.
everyone is hurt,
their faces show it.
i don’t want to look for purpose in the storm,
i don’t want to learn to deal with the pain.
i won’t lose what i have.
i don’t want to wipe this smile off my face.
i’m not happy with current situations or circumstances,
but i’m happy.
not bruised, bitter and beaten.
i’m going to true to myself,
maybe it’s not what you would do,
what you like.
what interests you.
what you think is a good idea,
or something most people would even consider sane.
but it is what makes me happy,
my life will be a sequence of dramatic successes and epic failures played by one untalented, unprepared, unrelenting, intelligent, self actualized individual who will remain steadfast in his own self-worth and love of life.
i see purpose in my life; not in the situations that effect it.
i see purpose in what i allow to occur, not for what occurs upon me.
i see purpose in only what i control;
out of no where,
i find myself in an utterly tragic state of affairs.
lost without a place for my head,
stranded somewhere between my thoughts and my dreams.
in a place that’s not home yet nothing to frown at.
i’ve tired of praying for clarity.
show me more than i’m seeing,
because what i am seeing isn’t pleasing.
it’s something like a dog and his tail or a groundhog and his shadow.
i’d pass peacefully away if i could just catch a passing glimpse of my reflection as he passes me by.
leaving behind who i was,
not sure of who i am,
unaware of who i’ll become.
gain the world,
lose your soul.
so many have forgotten themselves.
if you don’t love yourself and understand what you want,
you’ll never be happy.
know who you are